Bittersweet Life...

Sunday, May 29, 2005

yesterday's training was boring... shan't elaborate on it... then, came home late... blablabla..

nth much happened la.. so dunno wat to blog abt... chatted with mr kevin. miss that cool teacher of mine... haiz... he's damn lucky i tell ya.. he's now doin masters... in brisbane. oh yeah.. liyaa dearie, he said tt u can email him if u REALLY need help with econs... haha...

chattin with mr kevin made me realise tt we, humans, always look back at certain point of time and think about our actions... whether we did the rite thing.. whether we'll stay the way we are, or be the same person when better things things come our way.

as wat i told him, it's human nature... i guess. ppl tend to make mistakes.... but, we'll soon grow to learn how to blend them into our daily lives after realising its lessons...

ppl tend to regret the things they've done... even if their actions were good coz there were better things tt appeared into their life... yeah, doin the best thing is good... but wat if it's risky? wat if the change u make affects ur whole life, and u will then realise tt u should be satisfied with wat u had always have...

life is full of risks... tt's wat most ppl say... and we should learn to make mistakes so tt we'll noe wat's out there...

im living my life with a risk now... i dunno whether i can commit to becomin a CI... i dunno whether ill make it thru my diploma...

my life is in a mess now... i dunno where im headin in life. ppl at poly are not so frenly... i dunno maybe they are... but i juz dunno yet. all those tt im close at sp are in diff courses.. and it's so hard to meet them... ppl like zee and nyqa... and nadz..

when some of my coursemates, which are mostly guys, clicked already with each other, i feel damn lonely.... the girls tt hang out with are frm diff courses and schs... it's not tt i cant get along with my classmates, but it's juz soo hard to reach out to them... coz we never had the time as a class to interact. i dunno how im gonna spend my break times... who im gonna eat with... im lonely.

i miss 4g... i miss 3h... i noe i can never find anyone like u guys in poly... but for now, i cant even find anyone who's crazy and noisy like fab, or ema, liyaa, or feli, or suzie, or sotongz, vic, ivan, aisyah, or elfi... i miss the table ppl... those lame jokes, those hilarious moments when we put up weird faces, or acts or each other's mood swings... those unforgettable times when we invaded the peace of the ppl ard us... those rebellious attitudes toward council and its teachers...and in 4g, those times we had to stay back for mrs rajan, and we still didnt do our work despite stayin back almost everyday... the times when we, as a class, scramble ard to finish up our assignments which we dreaded to do... those times when we had to tahan naggings frm teachers, like mdm gill, mr kek.... i find the naggings very funny now... there were times too when we had fun studyin in class, when we joked thruout the whole lesson, but still managed to understand wat's goin on... the times when we cheered each other on in times of need... remember guys? failin a math tests and exams, bio... e math... POA... the squabbles we had... the stupid and immature squabble I had with the guys... ill always miss the times when we would always congregate when there's no teacher in class, and start gossiping and cracking pervertic, dirty jokes....

im gettin all teary... guess i really miss sec sch... it's all memories onli...

im lonely. i miss u guys.

Smashed into pieces at 5/29/2005 01:18:00 PM